Always a Silver Lining

Always a Silver Lining

Every Rainbow has an Unicorn at the end...

Each time I see a rainbow it gives me hope....the sun shining thru moisture in the air....can there be a better feeling...still air... still moisture...still hope that a cloud has a silver lining and that our lives have light and color and texture and truth. I was lucky enough to live the last nine years in the Islands of Haida Gwaii, mother nature rule with a heavy hand, the power of the ocean, the power of the wind and yet the generosity of nature in providing fish and berries and deer and all that one needs and many Rainbows.

Recently I saw the movie Avatar, such rainbow colors, such enormous love of nature and the entangelments that nourish and sustain us. I am so glad this movie shared these feelings with the people who see this show. I feel honored to have experienced the love of the people of Haida Gwaii and the gifts of sun and surf and sights of wild animals and sea creatures and birds living like they have for thousands of years. God makes no mistakes, every creature has a job and an right to live in peaceful harmony with each other. I am truly blessed to have had the opportunity to experience this first hand.

Sunday, January 16, 2011

2011

A new year is beginning full of possibilities and promises. The only limit to the possibilities are the limits I put on myself and although I hesitate to take chances, well, looking back I have taken alot and some worked out and some didn't but I promise myself that I will not put up road blocks created in my mind. I will not worry so much, a little saying came up on Facebook that made me laugh...."I know that worrying works because nothing that I have ever worried about came true" Wow what a great deal of time I have wasted by worrying.

Now the greatest thing that has happened so far this year and I am sure the first of many great things is that I have had some exciting family news....that has warmed my heart and restored my faith, and I will not worry about this little angel, although my first thought was to worry about her. This news is not mine to share but just knowing that a dream has come true for a little angel in my life makes my dreams come true too....your turn little ChickaDee. I love you.

Sunday, July 4, 2010

Holiday

Looking forward to visiting my daughter Kristi, her hubby Murray and their two kitties. They have just built and have moved in to their new little house on the prairie, actually 10 acres....how wonderful for them after the hard work they have done for the last few years getting an education, working hard to pay off student loans. Its their time to really enjoy the fruits of their labour. A new adventure in life that will give them stability and pride of ownership. I am proud of the work they have done building their home by themselves, even tho Murray teaches construction at SIASK, not many would have toiled all winter to build this little by little on weekends and after work...a labour of love. I am excited to share their joy and we have a plan to plant two little trees, in honor of the passing of Kristi's brother Gord and Murrays Dad who also passed a short time ago....Watching these trees grow tall and strong against the wind and weather will remind us that life goes on. Only days from now I will be able to hug my Kristi...it is a wonderful thing to have the love of family...I am humbled.

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Seven Years

Seven years since my son Gordon left this world. Pancreatic Cancer ravaged his young body, but his soul lives on. He left great memories, many who loved him, and we selfishly miss him....each and every day...I was so angry, why him, why after all he had endured throughout his life, and why when his life had just turned a corner, he was in a place in his life where he was happy loving Jen and was so proud of Blaine, Jack and Riah and basked in being loved by them. He loved to play hockey, to fish and to be with his Jenny. Gordie was funny and handsome and a tease, he had the most beautiful big blue eyes, which I see when I look into the face of his children...he was so lucky to have had the love that many look for all their lives yet never find....even so, I wish that he was here on this earth now.....so much left unsaid....my sadness is for his kids also, they missed knowing their dad and seeing the pride in his eyes when he saw how they grew...I see their wonderful faces, their accomplishments and their kind natures and know he would be so proud...

Friday, February 26, 2010

Alone

Alone here in my room
With my memories
Some horrible, gut wrenching and painful to remember
Some wonderful, warm and rewarding to recall
The memorable events that are part of my life
Are meant to teach me and make me stronger
And to make me thankful for the love of God
And for all those who love and care about me
I wish to never feel lonely again
But know I must learn to be by myself
Just to be..I must learn to Live in the now....
All is in Gods hands...I have been given so much
How can I be in service...feel fulfilled
I am just waiting for a sign....I need to be needed
That much I know about myself
I miss my Son, even though I have other children
I never even tell anyone that he has died
If asked I say I have 3 children
I know that I have not accepted his passing
But thankyou Lord for Gord and for the time we had
And the fun and closeness we felt for eachother
I leave my other two wonderful kids In your loving hands
Gords wonderful children...a fantastic gift
Sitting in my Room, not feeling so Alone afterall